Experiences
Experiences
Experiences
- September 2, 2020
- Posted by: MAYURI
- Category: My Experiences - My Thoughts
Experiences
- Stand all night at the Mandi ghat road, on the Kulu- Manali route watching the Kaartika deepams floating in Reas river near Bhagwan Shiva temple down below on the brilliant kartika pournami night. Mesmerizing sight. But could not do so because there were two colleagues with me and we had to reach Pathankot Railway station by early morning
- Wanted to sit across the Devi in Madurai temple and do dhyanam all night… but had to leave after 20 minutes for obvious reasons
- Wanted to spend the whole night listening to Laalgudi Jayaraman Violen recital at Ravindra Bharathi…but it got over too soon!
- When for the first time I read it, wanted the Atlas Shrugged to go and on…but it came to an end!
- When I saw Kuch Kuch Hota Hai for the first time…I did not want it to end… fell in love with the raw emotions depicted by the protagonists so much
- When I was teaching a class of Ph.D students on the role of Human Experience in Development… did not want the class to end…wonder what the students felt!
- When I was writing my last chapter on the discussion of my thesis results in Ph.D , didn’t want the time to move on…such an exhilarating experience
- When I sat beside my mother on Sri Rama Navami…She singing the Tyagaraja Kriti “ Mundu Venuka Iru Prakkala…’ Tears rolling down my cheeks… never wanted the moment to be over
- I wrote a romantic novel myself and had to end it…felt devastated
- When finally the protagonists of Pyasa Movie walk away hand in hand into the dark night… cannot explain the emotions I felt
- I alone with my little daughter celebrated completion of my Ph.D thesis submission with an ice cream in Baroda, after a marathon five year struggle, it was surreal
- Driving through heavy rain on a two wheeler from Ameerpet to Gandhinagar at 11.30 in the night! Never to forget experience
- Listening to the final titles track of Titanic, MY HEART WILL GO ON in the background, standing mesmerized with everyone else in the packed theatre
- Coming out of an interview realizing that my responses to questions were pitch perfect…whatever might be the outcome!
- The warm happy feeling after reading my first P.G Wodehouse “ Full Moon”
- Gazing up at brilliant Rembrandt and Von Gogh in Amsterdam, time coming to a stand still
- Hearing an American woman say ‘Are most women in India as bright as you?’ in 1990, in a conference in Milwaukee. It was a happy and amusing moment
- Getting great praise for a work by expert committee members, even though none knew my contribution to that
- The pouring in of love by innumerable students on two days in my life; September 5, Teachers Day and August 4, Birthday
- Inexplicably angry with the world, early morning 4.30 am walk in severe winter from Vaghodia road to the Bombay highway…miraculously losing all that anger
- Wearing a parrot green chiffon saree and looking my best… the best in the crowded room of us post graduate students…many eyes told me that! The thrill was inexplicable
- When I was told by an eminent professor that I was clearly a misfit among the crowd I function in, the surprise and elation that accompanied cannot be put in words
- Having to face the only and most hard hitting lashing from my bosses at a National Workshop with 150 participants and still being able to maintain my cool. This was redeemed in 25 days by the same bosses with unexpected appreciation!
- Tear filled eyes, taking the darshan of bhagwan at Tirumala after walking up the hills for the 11th time, and realizing probably will never be able to do that walk again
- The overwhelming sadness felt at the end of ’ Gone With The Wind’ novel reading for the first time
- Walking in total disillusion, all by myself for a couple of hours one evening not knowing what can be done without my scholarship money being released for my doctoral studies, with two dependents, my mother and my little girl with me! Miraculously the funds were released the next week, 10 months beyond their scheduled time!
- The one and only time crying my heart out when I lost my youngest brother… not for my loss, but for all those people for whom he was a saviour… it was a revelation that I could feel so must emotion and it was also a soul cleansing process
Why am I telling you all this? The best moments of our life are spent with ourselves…and our overwhelming emotions… Cherish them. Other humans are incidental to our inner experiences, they are not the protagonists; we are!
All type of emotions well covered.👍👍. Pouring the heart out is a ‘stress relief’ treatment!! Experiences of all types are worth sharing.
That’s really awesome to read out all that experiences felt by you mam…. You are a mentor to me all the time….wanted to spend some more time with at college…wanted to listen some more lectures of you at classes…. Wished to record all your classes when I got to know you r going to retire soon…. Wanted to say these all to you but couldn’t… There are some unfulfilled wishes that I could never say you but managed to say it to my heart while reading your this article… Thank you so much for being a part of my life mam… Still I wish I could meet you again to touch your feet again…
Ma’am,
Totally loved reading through your wonderful experiences! The ending is pitch perfect and we need to constantly remind ourselves.
Good read Mayuri… enjoyed it! As someone who experiences all emotions intensely (anger, joy, sadness… all of it) I couldn’t agree more that for many of us, the richness of our inner lives is in sharp contrast to the mundane outer existence and whatever roles we play (wife, mom, career woman, caretaker, husband, friend, etc etc). Ultimately my closest and most intimate, most honest and most authentic relationship is with ME. It is raw, it has no filters, it is real. I can’t really say that of any other relationship.
Akka…amazingly written..Emotions….. experience so well narrated. Love reading yr articles.
Wow! You have covered the entire gamut of them all!! I share some of those.. grief of losing someone I love, Rembrandt and Von Gogh at the art museum in Amsterdam.. getting over the fear of loneliness and turning that to an enjoyment.. pay cheques that made me think if I was worth that money.. buying a new flat and going alone to register and walking into the house also alone.. lessons learned in life!! Precious!!
Madam
Your experiences are really motivating and inspiring to us. We all have set of positive and negative experiences in our lives. We remember only those which make a dent in our amygdala. All these experiences help us to develop our life course trajectories. At each stage of life span we experience something unique. The cumulative of all these at the end is nothing but life review which invariably every human does to checkout the quality of one’s life .
And I’m the only one who knows what all are left out from the article!! 😀 You are an iconic woman for all these and more experiences which are left out.
Wonderfully Expressed Atta.
Madam , it’s a colourful experience and feelings expressed in a wonderful one should think about the emotional feelings
Thank you all very much. Most encouraging to keep up this work
Ma’am.. It’s always an amazing experience to hear you.. and nothing changed even today.. I still remember you standing and teaching research methodology and even after so many years, I can never forget your charismatic aura.. I feel am the luckiest to have you as my teacher.. a role model.. regards..
Ma’am….wow….just love this article…… I felt as if I am listening to you while reading…..so so well expressed….reminds me of the master’s time with you….your lectures……conversations……suggestions your praise and everything single thing of those 2 years.
Well expressed because you are a human developmentalist. Not all professionals of this field can do it. You are sensitive highly observant and with high cognitive and moral stage of development. Do continue
Well written, Mayuri
Awesome Mayuri ! You expressed your experiences & emotions so beautifully. I love reading your articles.😊
Laying bare your deeply personal experiences that remain vivid with the relentless passage of time, encourages one to do the same. As you mention, the feelings are ours exclusively but in all cases triggered by our interactions with and response to the outside: people, events, art, nature, etc. What makes some standout from the infinite others that touch our lives? What part do our individual life experiences play in assigning importance to certain experiences while dismissing others? Sometimes the novelty or rarity of an experience makes it stick forever, while repetitive ones are relegated to obscurity. The first Titanic experience in a theater – Wow! But the fifth time you see it?
Lots of questions left to be pondered upon …
Every one will have unique experiences in professional/personal life and are worth sharing .
Yr experiences well expressed akka